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my sincerest gratitude
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I just realised that i have been getting a couple more favourites and watchers in recent months even though i haven't been posting on anything much. Anyway, i would like to express my thanks for your interest in my work! Really appretiate it, i have a couple pictures in the works (by this i mean in the virtual soup in my brain) and will be trying to get them done this holiday season so thanks again and hopefully there will be something new coming your way.
<3 imagene
<3 imagene
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the begining of the end
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The gears in my head dont turn anymore
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A lot has been going on these days. Unfortunately, one of the things happens to be the degeneration of my mental capacity.
The ideas and thoughts come, but it seems that they get stop there and fail to develop any further. It's like someone put an umbrella in my brain and though it keeps it safe from the evils of the world, it also prevents my thoughts from getting out and affecting the world.
I believe that guy with the umbrella is me. ><
I need to throw that umbrella away. I feel like im not being stretched the way i would like to be. POTENTIAL. Whatever mine is, i need to find it.
The ideas and thoughts come, but it seems that they get stop there and fail to develop any further. It's like someone put an umbrella in my brain and though it keeps it safe from the evils of the world, it also prevents my thoughts from getting out and affecting the world.
I believe that guy with the umbrella is me. ><
I need to throw that umbrella away. I feel like im not being stretched the way i would like to be. POTENTIAL. Whatever mine is, i need to find it.
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Rejection | is a powerful tool.
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I need to learn to say no.
Overcomitting myself doesnt serve me any greater good.
Ambition was never my cup of tea.
Overcomitting myself doesnt serve me any greater good.
Ambition was never my cup of tea.
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Wear a red suit | become a man
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I must admit that it has been a while. how long have i been holding out on myself i do not know. I guess i wasnt ready. but the truth of the matter is; here is a heart that longs to love. At each opportunity that presents itself, how eager it'll be to lunge and fall. I know this much of it, but it has never stopped me from jumping.
Most people would chide that it isnt a very practical thing to do. i guess i have to agree with them, but this is how im built. i cant help but want to. on hindsight, this is, potentially, and extremely dangerous thing to do. Truth is, i think i put my trust and faith in things quite easily. im starting to wonder if i do it too naively. It is however true that the more u believe in something, the easier for it to thread on your misplaced faith and crush wadever is left of an already tired and jaded soul.
Why cant the best of both worlds exist?
It is even sadder, when u find out at the end of the day, that u were the only one who was believing in the contract. and that whatever uve been through was superficial and to the extent of almost never existing. I do feel that such occurance are such wastes of emotion, time and love. After all that, it shud had at least meant something. Something substantial enough to not be dismissed as a passing breeze that you may not have even felt. I lose another part of myself again.
| Find a dream to make you whole.
| Take the leap coz u'll never know.
Don't you also get the feeling where ure so lost, you feel u might not find your way again? Maybe at one point in time, deliberately u never want to find it for you know it would only lead you astray again. You've been lost so long, it could be that if u found your way, it'll never be the same again. It's hard tho, to return to that path that has once lead u to oblivion. I say hurrah to obliviousness.
| you'll never know where you might land.
| but wear a red suit and become a man.
To the people who allow me to love what i love; feel what i feel; and be what i be. find something dear, hold on to it and never let it go.
Most people would chide that it isnt a very practical thing to do. i guess i have to agree with them, but this is how im built. i cant help but want to. on hindsight, this is, potentially, and extremely dangerous thing to do. Truth is, i think i put my trust and faith in things quite easily. im starting to wonder if i do it too naively. It is however true that the more u believe in something, the easier for it to thread on your misplaced faith and crush wadever is left of an already tired and jaded soul.
Why cant the best of both worlds exist?
It is even sadder, when u find out at the end of the day, that u were the only one who was believing in the contract. and that whatever uve been through was superficial and to the extent of almost never existing. I do feel that such occurance are such wastes of emotion, time and love. After all that, it shud had at least meant something. Something substantial enough to not be dismissed as a passing breeze that you may not have even felt. I lose another part of myself again.
| Find a dream to make you whole.
| Take the leap coz u'll never know.
Don't you also get the feeling where ure so lost, you feel u might not find your way again? Maybe at one point in time, deliberately u never want to find it for you know it would only lead you astray again. You've been lost so long, it could be that if u found your way, it'll never be the same again. It's hard tho, to return to that path that has once lead u to oblivion. I say hurrah to obliviousness.
| you'll never know where you might land.
| but wear a red suit and become a man.
To the people who allow me to love what i love; feel what i feel; and be what i be. find something dear, hold on to it and never let it go.
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